Feeling Your Way Through Fears

I have been challenged recently with a variety of different fears that reflect my current position in life, and secondly regarding particular people in it. I have found it’s so easy to lose control and be scared into submission and inaction, especially when there’s a few of them knocking down your door.

Feel your way through the fear.

In a bid to manage them, I found I had to confront them. I did this through one hour of meditation where I focused on relaxing my body, then moving onto my breathing and then finally the fears.

I let each one of them rise up, taking the time to focus on each one individually and as objectively as I could. I find we naturally tend to ignore and push away our fears by default, so at this point I found it was good for me to acknowledge them and realise why they were there. Every fear has it’s own reason and right for it’s presence and needs to be respected if you want move on from it.

Once each one was recognised, I found a sense of relief. As though the tension I had felt that was mounting shrank, although didn’t go away altogether.

Knowing the reason for their presence allowed me to accept them more as I knew their individual place in my life then; it was in essence trying to protect me from something.

In the process I learnt where the fears were stemming from.

  • What you assume other people think of you or will think of you. This is a classic and never goes away for me. I remind myself that other’s thoughts are their own responsibility to maintain and not mine. They’re affected by what they think but that doesn’t necessarily mean I have to be as well. There will always be the odd few who don’t accept you but remember it falls in low priority when you look at the grand scheme of life. Happiness, gratitude, openness and love, these are things more deserving of your attention. You’re not living on this planet for very long.
  • What you assume people will do to you. This is a hard one, especially if previous experience has shown their capabilities of hurting you and how well they can do it. For this, I assured myself that I would maintain strong boundaries and always look after and respect myself first no matter what. You will always be vulnerable to some degree and that’s part of being human, but it doesn’t mean that you can’t walk away or that you’re incapable of healing yourself. Remember your power of choice. Pain can’t be avoided in life, but you can give yourself what you need to a certain extent.
  • What you assume is going to happen. True events unfold in the present only and not in your imagination. I’ve found I need to stay in the present and trust myself to be able handle whatever comes at me as it comes at me. If you can do what is outlined in the second point, this shouldn’t be too hard.

As per usual, rarely any of my fears manifest into reality because they’re usually an unconscious reaction to a situation or person that has particular history behind it. It doesn’t mean it can’t happen again, but it’s an opportunity for a new reaction from within. Whether that is pushing up boundaries, giving less value to other’s thoughts and opinions or another workable solution.

The only way to build new neural pathways is to recognise the old ones for what they are, accept them and their current relevance in your life and start to build new ones. Surprisingly, I told someone who I was afraid of that I loved them, because I knew deep down beyond past the fear that I did, and I got an amazing reaction from them which leads me to my final insight.

The best answer to fear is love.

Press the Reset Button Everyday

Every day is different to the next. Certain situations that happen one day that don’t occur on the next. A variety of people (at times) appear for whatever reason that we need to converse with, and challenges arise that require our attention and problem solving abilities. Sometimes some circumstances can be so intense, so challenging, that we carry them on our shoulders for days. Like a cartoon that continues to replay in the backs of our minds as we try to focus on our work or whatever it is we’re doing. But what if we could consciously press the reset button each day?


Start from Zero

This is a term I think is appealing in different aspects. First, beginning from zero means you’ve rid yourself of expectations, emotions and thoughts on how something is going to unfold. When you do this, you allow space for whatever actually happens, to happen. Of course, positive visualisations can always help but perhaps release them once done and don’t get attached. Instead, accept how a particular circumstance, situation or person proliferates in reality and not get caught up in disappointments. You will be well more equipped to deal with a situation as it arises as you become more flexible and elastic with all kind of occurrences with life. Approaching all things with an open mind means you’ll learn more and be calmer as well in the midst of whatever is going on.

The only way to do this is by consciously letting go of whatever has hurt us, disturbed us or otherwise has thrown us off from our normal mode or way of being. The best way of doing this is ‘catching it in the net’ as it comes. This was stated pretty well on an episode of Soulful Sunday where Michael Singer said to let the things people say pass through us without resistance or cause for defence.

One good thing to remember that when a particular person conveys to us in a manner that is hurtful or otherwise not favourable, it can be in many situations a reflection of how they are with themselves. This can help to take the poison out of their bite so to speak.

People tend to give themselves away in a million different ways and there is little need to allow for it to disturb how you are with yourself. Let the chain of reaction of hurt end with you, let it pass through you.